About

Choosing to live in love. Everything else is fear.

Hey, I’m Nat. Toward the end of 2020, I separated from my husband of 20 years. About a week after he moved out, I sat down on the floor of my room next to my bed, opened the TikTok app, and started talking about my experience.

Over the next couple of years I developed a following of women who had experienced the same things, and a surprising number of men. Some of these men are learning how to be better husbands, and some hate me for the things I say, but can’t seem to stop watching me. ;)

At the end of 2022 I started dating again and landed in a cosmic relationship I wasn’t ready for. It shook me into a spiritual awakening that’s teaching me about a love that’s bigger than any we’ve known before.

Here, I’m writing about all of it. It’s basically a public journal or blog, if you like.

To read more, see my website.

Why subscribe?

As much as I try to make the information I share accessible, I do still want to keep some privacy so I will lock things away at times. Subscribing gives you full access to all of it. I may also turn off comments at times, for my own sanity, but if you subscribe, you can share your thoughts. And if you want to troll me, at least you’re paying for the honor.

What People Are Saying

You empower me. Keep talking. I need to hear it over and over and over.

Young Lady, You have opened something huge here, its become phenomenal. wish you were around in my youth. No one has touched this subject EVER!!

You came across my fy page one day and as I listened to your soft, kind voice, I cried until I couldn't anymore. You encouraged me to see family victim services. I can now, with the help from your videos, properly explain what I have been living with for almost 10 years.

I wish I could show you how much this means to me, but I think you already know. Now I just need the strength to get him out of my home so I can heal.

Thank you so so much

i enjoy the way you deliver much, if not all, of your content. makes me think in a non-triggering way

I just wanted to say that you are inspirational.

I have taken some of your comments to my therapist to open more conversation. Coercion has been happening to me throughout my life. It started with abuse and followed me through THREE marriages. I have felt broken, like something is wrong with me, I mean a “normal” woman wants and enjoys sex, so I must be broken. You opened my eyes! You have helped me so much and now I can work on this in my therapy. Thank you! Thank you for sharing your pain so others can learn. You. Are. Amazing.